we're calling on answers we dont know.

I think as army wives we're always trying to be strong in every situation, never wanting to accept the fact, that breaking down is sometimes inevitable. It will happen, no matter how strong we are or how busy we try to keep. I havent felt this bad in a really long time. I have just 26 more days until im reunited with Dustin. Why does this month feel like every day is a year long? The past 2 days i've ate hardly anything, and in total have gotten maybe 9 hours of sleep. My anxiety is off the charts, and I find myself constantly having to remind myself JUST BREATHE. All I want is my husband. I want so bad to just lay in his arms, and rub my finger tips on his stomach, and feel his lips on my forehead every couple of minutes. I want to feel his heart beat, and I just want to hear his voice. I havent even heard his voice in over a week. I've never felt so lonely.

CLUTTERED MIND.

Second post here! I wish I could write more often but until im done working, that's probably not possible. This weekend was very exciting for me but at the same time-stressful,irritating, and made me angry.I hadn't seen my husband for a little over a month-So I went to Fort Benning, where he is at currently to visit him for 2 days. My Father in law and my husbands Step Mom decided to tag along.I was fine with that. A LITTLE annoyed but not much. It was also convient I didnt have to pay extra money for a cab, when I got to GA because THEY drove there. They live close enough to do that. I dont. So they picked me up from the airport, the first 10 minutes was great. Hugs, kisses, laughing, got along. It was great. Then the whole 2 hours to the hotel, my father in law-Jeff started bringing up how he feels like I dont care if they visit us or not, telling me I have an attitude, that I stole his "baby boy" from him. So I got pissed. Then any conversation I tried to engage in, they ignored me. Any questions they had about us moving, directions where to go, ANYTHING-was wrong. And when I ended up being right they didnt even acknowledge it.Dustin just has a month left there, and I was really hoping it would just be me going there. Wrong. They're coming again. I understand its his family and any chance they get to see him they want to, but I feel like they're having way to much of a hard time "letting go." They are extremley pushy, and can come off very RUDE.They dont respect me at all. If they didnt treat me like shit, I asbolutley would have no problem seeing them. So the stress of my in laws, are consuming my mind the past day or so. Im still angry at them! The thought of seeing them again in 3 weeks is making me cringe.
This blog is more of a rant tonight!

/End rant.

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New here:) So bare with me. Im Heather, im in my 20's. I appear way younger then I am, but thats just because im short. I got married to my husband in february. He's an Infantry Man in the Army. It gets rough with him being away, and me being alone so much.We are moving to a base in CO at the end of September, and leaving home on the east coast behind. So while I wait for him to return to me, in 5 weeks..And my last day at work is in 2 weeks..I'd figure I try this, and meet some new people. So for all you bored people, lets pass the time together.